I grew up being the center of attention. My parents are both the eldest in their family. I have a total of more than a dozen of loving aunts and uncles. Now, you know the logic. I am everyone’s barbie and baby. Literally, their eyes are all mine. I couldn’t recall any moment in my childhood that I’ve felt that I’m not loved.
Most people think that I am a spoiled brat, but I’m not. Really. That misconception pains me at times but not that hard. Actually, it even made me think that I’m damn lucky to be well-loved.
I nearly get everything I want, because there’s a lot of Santa granting my wishes. Even those I’ve never requested are there. I grew up through positive reinforcement, which up to now, I consider one of the cornerstone of my personality. I am trained to always be the best version of myself. You know, when you do good, you’re given a reward. And when not, you got nothing. That’s not bribery, as others would think it is. I believe it’s the best kind of reinforcement. It suits me. Up to now, I still do that. Alone. I reward myself if I know I did something great and I deprive myself of things I love to do when I think I did the opposite. That’s how I discipline myself, and that’s my way of making me a better me. It feels really good having accomplished things and rewarding yourself for a job well done. It boosts your morale and makes you feel like doing the same or even more to be able to feel the same fulfillment next time, right? That feeling is heaven!
My childhood is one of the things I’ll never ever trade for anything else. With great, generous, and loving people surrounding me, I could never ask for more. I’m not saying I’m perfect, but I feel like I grew up humane and directed on the right path.
The person I’ve become and I’ll be, I owe it all to them. Yes, I’m not yet old but I’m no longer a kid. And I believe, it’s already time that I pay something forward.
I love kids—as much as I love being a kid.
And I want the kids out there to have a glimpse and experience, at least even for a while, what I’ve experienced. Back in high school, I remember talking with my best friend about my plan of building an orphanage for kids. That’s how young I was when I knew God’s call. And that’s when I started doing stuff for the marginalized sector of our community. I’m keeping that dream alive and I want it accomplished as early as I could. If only I have all the resources, I should’ve make numbers of kiddos feel how it’s like to have a family and be at home.
For now, I’m fine with my foster family, who I haven’t met yet. I can’t imagine I’ve been sponsoring them for 6 years now. I don’t know how I survived the monthly expenses, but see, God provides. I never missed even a single month. That’s how God works to those who have a heart for others. There have been times when I can hardly see a centavo on my wallet, times when I couldn’t hang out with friends because I got nothing else but a hundred bucks, et al but God makes a way when it’s already time to give, He pours blessings. Yes, blessings.
Volunteering for Hands-On Manila also made me more excited about this passion. Sadly, I wasn’t able to attend to activities as much as I want to. I wish I could do more this coming year.
Just this year, I celebrated my birthday with the DSWD kids together with my friends and I promised myself that I’ll do it every year. Aside from that, I also made a pledge to an orphanage I’ve personally choose to give the kids a party every December. Yay to 2010! Why is it only now that I did those?
And lastly, I believe I do best in organizing my own outreach activities. I do it very randomly and in no specific dates. It’s like my happy pill for my heart. Just to say, I was diagnosed years ago that I have a heart problem. And doing stuff like that makes my heart feel very fine. The feeling it gives heals more than medications could ever cure.
And sometimes, you know, that ailment gives me the pressure of fulfilling that dream before it knocks me down. Sounds crazy, but it makes sense.
Just now, I realized, I already have a deadline. I look forward to doing more stuff for the kids this 2011.
Last December 27, I joined a friend who ought to share some love to the kids at Roxas Blvd. every Christmas season. It’s my second time there and I can’t wait for my third! :) Here are the some of the photo: